Assignment 26A - Celebrating Failure

26A - Celebrating Failure

• I fail a lot more than I like to admit and ironically, the thing I'm most afraid of is being considered a failure. The most recent time this happened was actually last Saturday. I was running an event that I wasn't exactly prepared for, and attendees noticed some problems that occurred. Some of these problems were my fault, either by lack of direction or change, or just the wrong idea altogether. I marked it off as a failure, not only in my eyes but also my bosses' eyes. I received a long lecture and am under the microscope for quite a bit now.
• What I learned from it is that regardless of what you have going on you can't let your life get the best of you. I can't sacrifice my job for the well-being of my family. There's system of balance but sometimes you need to make a choice. I also learned that there really isn't anything you can't or shouldn't come back from. Just because I made this mistake doesn't mean I will wallow in it. If anything it will just push me to work harder so I can regain the status I once held in my bosses' eyes.
• Failure is by far the most difficult thing for me. I'm horribly afraid of being labeled a "Failure" so often times I play the road safe rather than taking risks. It's embarrassing, it's hard and if you're not strong willed, the consequences often seem like there is no end in sight. Emotionally, I can't handle it. I cry and I get frustrated behind closed doors but physically in the moment I'm very level-headed and push  my way through the situation.
• This class has taught me that perseverance is the key to success regardless if you fail. Will I take more risks because of it? Probably not, but I think it just stems down to my fear of losing.